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23rd-Feb-2013 07:18 pm
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Author: New_Unchanged
Title: Hold My Hand
Chapter: Day 23 of 28 of my Songfic Challenge
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG 13, Nothing Exciting, but I use harsh language
Concrit: Comments only
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, the lyrics to the songs, or anything else.
Warnings: M/M Pairing, but this is a Spander Community so....
Summary:Based on a prompt from
lusciousxander: "I'd like a fic about Xander coming out to his friends or his friends discovering he's with Spike. No character bashing, especially from Buffy, I want this to be a fun yet serious story about how canon characters will react to this peice of news. It'll be so hard to accept the idea, there'll be lots of objections, but eventually they'll try for Xander, and it'll take them so long to warm up to Spike, who on his part is still rude to them and making it so difficult for them to like him."


It was the day Xander had been dreading for almost a year. The day his friends found out he was sleeping with Spike. It was the fuck up of a lifetime as far as they were all concerned. Not because he was dating Spike, but because he lied about it and hid it from them. Spike was hurt from being a dirty little secret for so long. It just wasn’t going to be an easy day.


I've been waiting for a good day

I've been holding back long enough

I've been hurting to tell you some things

it's not the falling of the temperature

that's making all our bones run cold

it's the breeze you make

the presence felt when you're around me


“You know I’ve known you since kindergarten mister. Why did you think you had to hid this from me? You know I understand the not wanting to let people know about the whole dating the evil undead thing. But not telling us you were gay? Did you not think I’d understand. Kinda the alternative lifestyle pioneer of the group.” Willow said while giving him her resolve face.


and it feels like I'm at an all-time low

slightly bruised and broken

from our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case of feeling

bruised and broken

form our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case




“I mean you deprived me of multiple chances to get back for all the remarks about Angel and how romance and Vampires don’t mix. COme to think of it I should have known. You and Spike haven’t been throwing around as many death threats lately. First the death threats go and then comes the horizontal mambo. Plus you know he is all compact and muscley- Oh my God we Are totally blind. How could we miss it”, Buffy mused.



and I'm still waiting for a good day

I think I've held this long enough

I think it's safe to tell you some things

it's not just what you say to people

and it's not the way you look at me

it's the way you present yourself

for all your worst critics to see


“Really Xander, one would think after all the time spent around the Watcher’s diaries and mystical tomes you would have actually learned something. Spike isn’t like Angel he doesn’t have a soul. I suppose you do have a history with becoming romantically involved with demons. I trust you know what you are getting yourself into?”  Giles lectured.


and it feels like I'm at an all-time low

slightly bruised and broken

from our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case of feeling

bruised and broken

form our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case


“I think it’s great. You two rock and you two being together makes me happy!” Dawn squealed.


Xander was relieved. Dawn wasn’t angry or disappointed. Once again she saw past all the other drama and put it in terms that mattered to her. She was happy, she didn’t care about anything else.


then you were gone

you were gone

all this time you just didn't know it yet

you were gone

all this time you just didn't know it yet

you were gone


For the most part they were all taking it better than Xander expected. Spike seemed to be the only one still hanging on to the disappointment and anger. He was right to be hurt and upset. He felt betrayed.  He was gone. Spike gave Xander some rubbish about giving him time to think and sing his cumbyahs with the other scoobies. Xander knew the truth. Of all the people he hurt by his sneaking around, Spike was the one who got the worst of it.


and it feels like I'm at an all-time low

slightly bruised and broken

form our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case of feeling

bruised and broken

from our head on collision

I've never seen this side of you

another tragic case

another tragic case of feeling

bruised and broken

another tragic case and I've been

still waiting for a good day

still waiting for a good day




“You know I never expected a crypt for two and white picket fences, but I never wanted to be your dirty little secret. If I’m not good enough for you then maybe this should end. I don’t want to wait around for you tro chose them over me again.”

“I’ll never have to do that Spike. They understand. I underestimated them.”

“Doesn’t matter, it will happen again. Maybe about work, or family. You won’t ever put me first.”

“I know I screwed things up, but the who admitting I’m gay and shacking up with the creature of the night- can’t you see how it would give me a case of the wiggins? I love you, and you stood by me for so long. DOn’t give up on me now. Give me a chance to make this right.”

“There's just so much to work through. Trust has to be built again on both sides. You have to learn if we can fit in each others lives. I’m not going to wait around for you to outgrow me”.

“Spike, that won’t happen. I need you. It’s time that I start showing you that again.

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