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Author: New_Unchanged Title: Do You Know Chapter: Day 28 of 28  
28th-Feb-2013 06:09 pm
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Author: New_Unchanged
Title: Do You Know
Chapter: Day 28 of 28 of my Songfic Challenge, Stand alone piece
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG 13, Nothing Exciting, but I use harsh language
Concrit: Comments only
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, the lyrics to the songs, or anything else.
Warnings: M/M Paring, but this is a Spander Community so....
Summary: Based on the following prompt from Lady Q: write a story where Xander accedently pops in on Spike while his is sleeping
Notes: The Song used for this day is The Ping Pong Song- Enrique Iglasias
Challenge: Write a Songfic a day for the entire month of February. Based on a prompt from Lady Q: Write a story or a series of stories based on the 25 most played songs on your ipod. Songs can be shuffled or in order up to the writer.




Xander was miserable. He had been dating Spike in secret for about two months. It was a great two months. It all ended in a horrible mess. See, the thing with secret relationships is that eventually no matter how hard you try they can’t stay secret. Spike decided that screwing him in private was one thing, but letting Buffy know about it was another. He compared it to seeing Harmony- they slept together because it was convenient, but Spike wasn’t going to advertise the fact like it was something to be proud of.

Do you know [x3]


[Chorus]

Do you know what it feels like

loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.

(Do you know [x3])

Do you know what it feels like

to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.


Do you know [x4]

Do ya


It was all too much for Xander. He had done the ashamed running around. He had done the one sided love thing. He wasn’t going to stick around with someone just for sex. He could finally say he had more pride than that.

It hurt more than words could say that Spike didn’t seem broken up when it ended. Xander was still silently screaming on the inside. It sucked that he and Spike had to see eachother everyday. That Xander had to put on a happy face and deal with it. It sucked even more that Xander was being forced to drop off a box of texts in Fayrl and some blood to Spike’s crypt so he could read them when he woke up. At least he wouldn’t have to talk to him.


If birds flying south is a sign of changes

At least you can predict this every year.

Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly

I can't get it to speak

Maybe finding all the things it took to save us

I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me

Look in your eyes to see something about me

I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.


When Xander made it to Spike’s crypt he let himself in. There wasn’t a sign that anyone was home, so Xander figured Spike was sleeping somewhere else or he was downstairs in the lower level of the crypt. Xander was going to just drop the box and leave but temptation got the better of him.

[Chorus]

Do you know what it feels like

loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.

(Do you know [x3])

Do you know what it feels like

to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.


He knew even as he ascended the stairs to the lover level of Spikes crypt. He just needed to peek in and make sure Spike was there- that he hadn't moved on to someone elses bed.

Do you know [x4]

Do ya

How can I love you [x4]

If you just don't talk to me, babe.


Xander relaxed for a second when he saw Spike asleep in his bed. His breath caught in his throat, Spike looked so angelic in his sleep. It was so ironic considering how far from an angel Spike was. It hurt so much that he had resorted to stealing sights like this when they were once freely given to him.

It flows through my head

The question is she needed

And decide all the man I can ever be.

Looking at the last 3 years like I did,

I could never see us ending like this.


Things had been so good. They were getting along and having fun. The sex was killer. They just fit together. It made Xander rethink whether he made the right choice throwing it away because he wanted more. He just didn’t know if he was the kind of man who could live in shadows.

(Do you know)

Seeing your face no more on my pillow

Is a scene that's never happened to me.

(Do you know)

But after this episode I don't see,

you could never tell the next thing life could be


Xander wondered if he would ever find someone to love him the same way he loved them. It always seemed to be unequal on one side or the other. What was the point anyway? He was probably going to die tripping over his feet in battle like everyone expected of him. Its odd how he thought Spike might have been the one.

[Chorus]

Do you know what it feels like

loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.

(Do you know [x3])

Do you know what it feels like

to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed


He sighed and gave Spike a soft kiss on his forehead\ taking care not to wake him. He then climbed back upstairs resolved that he wouldn’t allow himself to pine for Spike anymore. He was going to move on if it killed him.

Do you know [x3]



When Spike woke that night he was in a bad mood. He dreamed of Xander all morning of soft kisses and time spent well wasted. It felt so real that he even thought he could smell Xander’s scent wafting softly about his crypt.
Comments 
3rd-Mar-2013 06:15 am (UTC)
Bad spike! doesn't know what he's missing.

Thanks for sharing your stories this month. Really appreciated- fun to look forward too
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