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Steps Ch. 1 
8th-Oct-2006 09:45 pm
Author: madame_meretrix
Title: Steps
Chapter: 1/probably 10
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: NC-17
Feedback: yes, please
Concrit: however’s easiest- comment or email
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, nor do I intend them any harm.
Warnings/Squicks: undertones (overtones?) of D/s, allusions to S/A
Summary: Post-NFA/Chosen, Spike carries the weight of the world, and he finds someone to, um, lean on.
Notes: explicit descriptions of sex, bad language, people being mean, deep angst, potentially no resolution; probably not a happy ending.
Beta(s): don't have one yet. will you be my beta?

“Oh fuck.”

If this were a porno, this would be the shot they’d put on the box. Xander cants his hips up a little bit more, his spine already in a tight “C”. Spike rams in again. No limbs are blocking this view. Their bodies are touching in only one place.

“Ch…Christ. Uh.” Spike jackhammers down into Xander’s willing body. Harder, faster, so brutally it almost looks like punishment.

Xander doesn’t seem to mind.

He urges Spike on, stripping his own cock so fast his hand is a blur.

“Yes, fuck. Yes. Just…lu…oooh..fuck I’m gonna…” Xander’s body seizes up and freezes, his face a flushed rictus of intensity. No breathing, no seeming movement at all. But Spike can feel it. Inside Xander’s clenching and twisting and pulling him over the edge.

Xander sucks in a deep breath; tries to slow down his racing heart.

Spike rolls off, sits up, strips the condom off and knots it. Runs a hand through his hair and down his chest. He gets up slowly and ambles into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him.

Not a word is said between them. Again.


Spike comes out of the bathroom followed by a cloud of steam. He’s clean and damp and dressed. Without making eye contact he grabs his keys and heads to the door. He wants to just leave. No words. No sharing. He wants to leave and not ever come back here. He knows that he will, though. Knows he’ll need this again eventually. And he knows that Xander knows. No sense in pissing him off. He’ll just have to deal with the fallout next time.

“I better…he’ll be expectin’ me.”

“Yeah. You should. I’ll see ya.”

Spike spares a furtive glance at the bed. Xander hasn’t moved. He’s sprawled out on the bare mattress, all the sheets having been shoved off in their haste.

Spike blinks, clutches his keys, and walks out the door.

This is my very first fic. I am extremely nervous. I've been a longtime lurker, but have not had the confidence before now to comment anywhere or post anything. I feel that now that I've gotten something out there, it'll get easier. It will, won't it?
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9th-Oct-2006 04:13 pm (UTC) - thanks!
i was going for just a bit of intrigue.

i appreciate the feedback (first one!)

hope you like the next bit, too.
9th-Oct-2006 07:02 am (UTC)
I lurked a long time, too. It does get easier. Either that, or you get addicted to the fb and it makes the nerves worth it. *g* I comment a lot more now, too, since I know how much it means to have someone say something (no matter how short) about your work. ;)

I agree, this is a neat start, and I'd like to see where you're taking it. Is Spike human? Who's "he"? I have my guesses... ;)

Re: betas - you may know bloodclaim has a list of available betas? but I didn't use it myself, as I was nervous about writing off to somebody I didn't know... I ended up finding one as things went. I'm on the bc list and willing to beta if you want. (That said, this is nicely done and typo-free! :)
9th-Oct-2006 04:18 pm (UTC)
yeah, feedback really does feel good. it's weird, but when i read other people's stuff, i kind of think that they already know it's super-good. and they'd be like, who are you? but i think i'll just go for it. cuz, yeah, it's appreciated.

i'm glad that this part made you wonder. (hee!)

re: betas: exactly right, i was too scared. i approached one person on the bc list, and when they didn't get back to me i chickened out.

i would love it if you would beta! not sure how it usually goes... should i email you the next part?
9th-Oct-2006 05:55 pm (UTC)
There may be some writers out there who know they're super-good - the ones I go in awe of, and figure, if they can write something that good, they must know it's good.

But good and appreciated aren't always the same thing, and I think most people really love the fb. Not that we count the number of comments or anything... *blush*

Sure, email me the next part: electricgwen (at) hotmail (dot) com. Let me know how "deep" a beta you want (just fix spelling/grammar errors that slipped by you; comment on flow/voice etc...)
9th-Oct-2006 08:17 pm (UTC)
tee hee. nope, didn't count them at all. ;)

i will email you the next bit tonight, then. i think the next chapter is fairly tight, but i've made a great hash out of ch 3 through 6, so...

i think that might mean a really "deep" beta. you up for it?
9th-Oct-2006 08:47 pm (UTC)
Up for it, sure. :)
I'll do my best to give you a quick turn-around, but we're in markedly different time zones - anything sent "tonight" won't get to me until my morning. Hopefully I can have it back by your tomorrow night, depending on work etc.
9th-Oct-2006 07:21 am (UTC)
I'm addicted to happy endings so may not read all of this but it's a really good start, well written with good description and lacking the kinds of mistakes that pull readers out of a fic. Very well done. And yes, it does get easier. *g*
9th-Oct-2006 04:22 pm (UTC)
thank you thank you thank you! i'm so pleased to get fb specifics. well, i can say that there will be a bit more smut before it all goes south, if you want to stay with it a little longer...

can't wait for the getting easier. (palms sweating) *g*
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9th-Oct-2006 04:24 pm (UTC)
la, this made my morning! thanks for the awesome fb!

so many possibilities...
9th-Oct-2006 03:25 pm (UTC)
great beginning - I can't wait for more
9th-Oct-2006 04:26 pm (UTC)
thank you! :)
9th-Oct-2006 04:22 pm (UTC)
Very good start would like to read more please. Don't give up you are doing great me on the other hand can't write fic's very well but can come up with a good poem LOL. Can't wait to read more!
9th-Oct-2006 04:29 pm (UTC)
thanks! will be posting at least the rest of this story. we'll see if i can actually write more...

poems are SO much harder than fics. i can't even parse them let alone write one! ;)
9th-Oct-2006 04:32 pm (UTC)
Well it worked for me. I want to know the rest of the story and see more hotness!
9th-Oct-2006 08:14 pm (UTC)
yay! *runs to go write more smut*

10th-Oct-2006 02:12 am (UTC)
Very intense and dark. I like the start of this. Excellent descriptions.
10th-Oct-2006 03:56 am (UTC)
thanks! i was going for dark. and intense. you may like the next bit too...

nice icon. it tells a good story. maybe my favorite story! ;)
10th-Oct-2006 02:14 pm (UTC)
Very hot and well written. You've also got me extremely curious as to what's going on and who 'he' is. Keep going.
10th-Oct-2006 02:48 pm (UTC)
thanks! I will! who is 'he' indeed...
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