Rating: Adult overall
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in this story
Summary: Xander has a crush. William has a secret
The trip back to Xander's apartment was traveled in silence.
William was contentedly curled up next to Xander and feeling
lighter than he had since this whole nightmare had started all those
The truth was out. He was finally done with all the hiding and lying.
The one person in the world that mattered the most knew all
about him and it didn't matter.
All those weeks of passing by the work site to see him, smile at him,
and think about him.
All those fantasies he has had.
All the stories Will had constructed in his mind staring fantasy Xander.
None of them came close to the real man.
None of them could touch the heart of the man beside him.
Will felt like a man who had been dying in the desert and somehow
stumbled into an oasis.
Pulling his knees up under him and snuggling even closer, William looked
over at Xander.
"You are very quiet, Xander. Are you all right?"
"Huh? Oh sure, Baby. Just thinking is all. You just close your eyes and snooze.
We will be home in a few minutes."
Kissing the top of his head, Xander returned to his own world of mental somersaults.
'10 Million pounds!?! Holy shit! That must be like, what, in dollars?
5? 10? 12? 15? A lot! So how the hell do I feel about that?
I don't know if I am comfortable with that.
It was all good when I thought I would be taking care of a poor, sweet,
wonderful man, but now it feels different.
What will people think?
Does this make me a kept man?
Is William my sugar daddy?
Looking over at him, Xander had to concede it would probably
be more like a sugar baby.
So if this problem was insurmountable, could Xander just walk away?
Well finally there was a question that Xander knew the answer
NO! I want William to be part of my life.
In my arms, in my bed, shit, in my kitchen on Sunday mornings
with pancakes and the newspaper.
So maybe I'm looking at this all wrong. William comes with issues.
I can help him deal with the trauma of his past, maybe the money is
just another cross to bare.
Finally deciding the best way to deal with the situation was to,
at least for now, ignore it, Xander relaxed.
It had all been overwhelming and they both
needed some time to process.
The day was overcast and threatening to rain. Off in the distance Xander
could hear the rumble of thunder. From the sound of it he estimated
about two hours before the storm hit.
Pulling up to the curb, Xander parked his car and nudged William awake.
"Come on sleepy. we're home"
William looked out the window and rubbed his hands over his face and
scratched his head.
"Must have dozed off. Guess I was more tired than I thought.
Is Miss Willow still here?"
Xander climbed out the drivers side and circled around to stand by as
William stepped out.
He could smell the ozone and knew the rain would be a soaking one.
"Should be, she wanted to make sure you were all right before she went home."
William dropped his head and blushed. "I'm so sorry to have caused so
much trouble. I do hope you don't decide I am not worth the aggrivation."
Xander stopped them on the walkway to the front of the building.
Turning, he took Williams face in his hands and forced him to look Xander in the eye.
"William, nothing that happened was your fault. And I didn't bring you home
because I feel sorry for you. You're here because I lo...really like you.
Let's just relax and take it day by day. See how we fit. O.K?"
"From what I have seen so far, I think we fit very well." William winked and ran for the front door giggling.
Xander's face broke out in a huge smile and he chased after him.
It felt like a good sign.
After the morning revelations, it felt like a small miracle.
Together the burst through the door into the living room. Hearing the commotion,
Willow came out of the kitchen drying her hands on a dishtowel.
"Hey, look at you two." She beamed at the happy sight.
It was such a direct contrast to the horror she had left behind in that tiny prison cell of room.
Her heart swelled with the hope that all this could be delt with and the two men embracing could find their way through the darkness.
"Will, why don't you go take a shower. Willow needs to leave soon, and I'd like to talk to her for a minute before she goes."
Leaning up to place his lips close to Xander's ear, William whispered
"Xander, would it be possible to take a bubble bath instead?"
Xander groaned at the warm breath and the visual that accompanied Will's request.
"Sure, Baby. Everything you need is in there."
William started to go, but stopped and turned at the bedroom door.
Smiling he lifted his hand "Bye, Miss Willow. See you later?" Returning the smile Willow rushed over and gathered him up in a bear crushing hug.
"You can count on it, Sweety. Now I can trust you to take care of Xander
tonight can't I?" She used her most stern voice.
Will giggled and returned her mock somber tone with his hand over his heart.
"I give you my word." With that he turned and was gone.
Whirling around, Xander could see Willow was wearing her resolve face,
something that usually preceded a lengthly lecture.
Throwing up both hands, he stopped her before she got started.
"Just don't, o.k? I know we have a lot of problems ahead of us," Willow raised her eyebrows questioningly.
What else had happened that she didn't know about?
Before she could ask, Xander cut her off by continuing, "and maybe some counseling, but for right now I think we just need some quiet, alone time."
"I know you are right. He just seems so fragile. Before I promise not to
stick my nose in any further, can I make one teeny little suggestion?'
Xander loved his sister to death, but knew if there was something she wanted to say there would be no stopping her till she got it out. Rather that a verbal answer, Xander made circles with his hands signaling her to get on with it.
"O.k. well, I think maybe, just for now, you and William might benefit by sleeping apart."
Willow finished the last of her sentence head down, face pink, and only slightly more than a mumble.
"Willow! Thanks for your faith in me." Xander huffed. "For your information I already thought of that, and I intend to sleep on the couch. Now, I love you madly. Go home"
All forgiven, Willow smiled and kissed her brother on the cheek.
"Call me later if you need anything. Oh shoot. Just call me later."
"Will do, Sis."
As she was stepping out the door
Xander petted her hair softly. "I love you Willow. Thanks for everything."
Throwing her arms around him, she turned and was gone.
'Sleeping on the couch. No problemo. I can do.'
"Oh, Xanderrrrr can you come and wash my back?"