Hey guys! I'm looking for a fic I read sometime ago, in it Anya dies (maybe in a car accident?) and Willow has Xander start to keep a diary/journal to deal with his feelings. Spike moves into his apartment and Xander finds out he brushes his teeth like 10 times a day and is scared of the vaccum cleaner, they also start to build lego stuff together and hunt together. There's a fourth of July celebration that's crashed by baddies and the gang start to realize that Xander has really changed. I think it was a WIP at the time I read it but as I said I can't find it now. Help, please!!