Title: Nice Day...For a Funeral
Part 2 of a 8 part series
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Disclaimer: Everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. Title belongs to Overkill from their Horrorscope CD.
Warnings/Squicks: Aftermath of Suicide
Summary: Willow's thoughts in the aftermath of Xander's suicide.
Previous chapters: http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=orilon&keyword=Buried+Dreams+Part+1&filter=all
Why? Was the main thought going through Willow's head. Why would he do this?
Buffy had found Xander's body surrounded by blood when she went looking for him after none of them had seen him for over a week. Willow was worried after two days of not seeing him but no one listened to her. Of course. Since he didn't leave a note, nobody knew what pushed him over the edge enough to cut his wrists. As they were making funeral arrangements, courtesy of Giles, Willow tried to remember the last days she had seen him to look for clues and warning signs. Something that would have told her he was this depressed. And what she could have done to stop him, to give him something else to live for.
Had he lost another job? In the past that was not enough to make him depressed, but it was a possibility. Was there some girl that he had been dating that left? Willow wished she knew. He never did have much luck with women. What had changed that got to him this much?
The only definite thing that she knew had changed was that Buffy had been fed up with Spike and staked him. But why would that affect him this way? He hated Spike's guts; he probably would have thrown a party now that the vampire was gone.
She guessed she would never know, as much as that hurt.