I have posted this search before and I would really like to reread this story. It is a Dark Xander story. Xander in this with the help of Spike kills all of his friends. In this Xander explains to them why he is doing this. He is tired of being ignored and explains to them how he is gay and his love for Jesse and Spike laughs and says Xander is his and Xander explains that he belongs to Jesse Spike is just borrowing his body. Xander is not a Vampire in this. There is a lot of blood and I think that the word mirror is in the title. If this sounds familiar please tell me the title and who wrote it.