So the short version is I woke up this morning woke the kids up for school, and cuddled with my dog, then my baby (my dog) died in my arms ), incredibly suddenly and with no warning, -it also happens to be 17 years to the day from my father's death- so I'm begging, pleading, SCHMOOP ME or schmangst me either one just give me something cuddly that ISN'T in the Sweet and Schmoopy section of SpanderFiles ('cause, while I adore SF, I've read and re-read the entire Sweet and Schmoopy section so many times it hurts!).
EDIT: Mys just wanted to make sure EVERYONE knew how much she appreciates your condolences and the recs. *hugs everyone*
hmm. My stuff's not in spanderfiles. Most everybody else's is, though.
I have my Spander Tag that you can look through. It's got the shorties from my 100moods table that is still a work in progress and buried between those entries, lots of little one offs for people.
OMG. Your dog died in your arms?? My heart is breaking for you right about now. I had to put one to sleep, cuz some butthead shot her in the hip, but I stayed with her while she went down and it was the saddest moment of my life I think. I'm so sorry to hear about your doggie! But she was loved as she went, and I think that's terrific.
Oh gods, I almost feel like having to be with your baby when they're being put to sleep is worse- always questioning if it was really the right thing, even though you know it was. ((((hugs))))
I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. You could check out my spander tag on del.icio.us. Though it is mostly archives, individual stories are also marked with a "story" tag.
You have my sympathy. I have some schmoopy Spike/Xander, and it's not posted on the Spander Files. Click here for my Spike/Xander tag, and then scroll down and read up from the bottom.
Sorry, I don't have any good schmoop, but I do have a big hug for you
{{{{{mystic}}}}}
This time last year my 15 y.o. dog died. She'd been with me since BH (before husband; and three kids; and a move across the country). Tomorrow is also the 26th anniversary of my dad's death.
Thanks dear. Yeah, my little one was a rescue (sorta), he'd been abused by his owner, so I kidnapped him (not like his owner didn't know where he was, I just didn't give her any choice in the matter). That was just after my first marraige, 8 years later, 2 moves cross-country, one move from the States to Europe, a divorce, and a second marraige later... The thing was he wasn't even sick, we think it was a stroke 8:50 this morning he was being all cuddly, 8:55 he couldn't stand or control his right side, and by 9:00 he was gone.
You're choice of rec is apropos, today was also a year to the day since I started reading Bee's fic, lol. She even let me have a sneak peak at Cock-ness before she posted it. *g* And you're absolutely right about her fic- I'm seriously considering pulling up White Lightning and Heart Strings!
*g* Thanks, I am glad I got to cuddle him... it's just the last time one of my babies died in my arms it was after a pitbull attack, so all those memories and feelings came rushing back on top of losing him.
Oh, how very sad for you Mys. I have lost many dogs over my many years, and, while you might not feel it yet, you were very privileged to have your dog die in your arms. Sad, true, but it also shows that your dog trusted you, very much. Animals that are going to die and know it, usually hide. I, unfortunately, have never had that. I have had to put down all my dogs for various health reasons, or, when I was young, they would have been run over. A huge shock to lose dogs (and cats) that way. Mourn your dog, Mys, but remember, you were loved by that dog.
I find that if you can bury them somewhere close, and plant something over them, it gives you a place to go and remember the fun times.
Yes, I do know much it means for an animal to choose to be with it's human(s) at the end- and ya know that's what I always worry about after they are gone, whether or not I loved them enough, I really ought to stop chastizing myself about such things by now. As for burying, etc... that's what we did when our family dog died some 20 years ago- my dad planted a pine tree on top so we could decorate it every Christmas for her. We've also done that for a couple murdered pets since then (we lived next to a homicidal pitbull for a time, took two of our babies and attacked two others, including the one I lost today- he was a very stubborn dog).
Too true, this little guy was one of the three that kept me going in my darkest. There were so many times I talked myself ought of doing something stupid because of him. *shakes head at self and is very glad she's not in that 'state' anymore*
I am so sorry for your loss, I know from experience how heartbreaking it is. My last wolfhound died in my arms at home, and it still brings tears two years later. My terrier is getting many hugs right now knowing how quickly one can lose of part of themselves. My deepest sympathies!
My terrier is getting many hugs right now knowing how quickly one can lose of part of themselves. So true... and ppl wonder why canine mutilation/death is the second of Mys' two squicks. Right now it's horrible, cause last year I had to find a home for my other dog (who is quite happy in his new home, I at least still get updates on the overgrown furball), and because Pup's cat is an grumpy old coot I had to leave my other baby (a cat) with my mom in the States, so I don't even have any of my other babies to cuddle!
So sorry about the dog!
I have my Spander Tag that you can look through. It's got the shorties from my 100moods table that is still a work in progress and buried between those entries, lots of little one offs for people.
also:
Reunion
Shadows eep. I'm not sure about this one. It was my first serial fic, and it kinda shows. *shrug*
Colors of Silence
Xander Tag has my Xander table for
hope that helps your craving for schmangst?
OMG. Your dog died in your arms?? My heart is breaking for you right about now. I had to put one to sleep, cuz some butthead shot her in the hip, but I stayed with her while she went down and it was the saddest moment of my life I think. I'm so sorry to hear about your doggie! But she was loved as she went, and I think that's terrific.
*hugs you*
http://del.icio.us/lds_on_ca/spander
{{{{{mystic}}}}}
This time last year my 15 y.o. dog died. She'd been with me since BH (before husband; and three kids; and a move across the country). Tomorrow is also the 26th anniversary of my dad's death.
I know where you're coming from.
Oh, here's some fun S/X:
The Cock-Ness Monster
http://bmblbee.livejournal.com/tag/legend
And, any other bmblbee S/X. She writes fun stuff!
Take care.
Yeah, my little one was a rescue (sorta), he'd been abused by his owner, so I kidnapped him (not like his owner didn't know where he was, I just didn't give her any choice in the matter). That was just after my first marraige, 8 years later, 2 moves cross-country, one move from the States to Europe, a divorce, and a second marraige later... The thing was he wasn't even sick, we think it was a stroke 8:50 this morning he was being all cuddly, 8:55 he couldn't stand or control his right side, and by 9:00 he was gone.
You're choice of rec is apropos, today was also a year to the day since I started reading Bee's fic, lol. She even let me have a sneak peak at Cock-ness before she posted it. *g* And you're absolutely right about her fic- I'm seriously considering pulling up White Lightning and Heart Strings!
*hugs*
*Hugs*
I must apologize, I don't really know much about schmoop-as usually I go for hurt/comfort fics- but hopefully you'll find what is needed.
Blessings and heartfelt virtual hugs
J
At least you got to cuddle her/him before though.
::hugsyou::
I find that if you can bury them somewhere close, and plant something over them, it gives you a place to go and remember the fun times.
Thinking of you.
Cathy
As for burying, etc... that's what we did when our family dog died some 20 years ago- my dad planted a pine tree on top so we could decorate it every Christmas for her. We've also done that for a couple murdered pets since then (we lived next to a homicidal pitbull for a time, took two of our babies and attacked two others, including the one I lost today- he was a very stubborn dog).
So true... and ppl wonder why canine mutilation/death is the second of Mys' two squicks.
Right now it's horrible, cause last year I had to find a home for my other dog (who is quite happy in his new home, I at least still get updates on the overgrown furball), and because Pup's cat is an grumpy old coot I had to leave my other baby (a cat) with my mom in the States, so I don't even have any of my other babies to cuddle!