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I am pretty sure that this one is easy but for the life of I cannot remember.  Okay, its angst, with Xander realizing that he loves Spike but doesn't act on it.  Everybody knows except Spike.  Anyway the scene that keeps on popping in my head is when Buffy is resurrected she forgets it and ends up sleeping with Spike.  Willow asks her what Xander didn't want him to know or something like that.  Buffy answers "Secret Crush."  And then remembers and feels horrible.  But anyway, I CAN NOT REMEMBER!!!!  Help me!  It's right there on the edge of my brain but.  It sucks! Please, pleasepleaseplease, help me know what and where this fic is.  Thank You for your help! Thank You!!