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Hi !

I've got two fics on my mind and I don't know title or author of either one. Any help would be appreciated.

1)  Spander where Spike overhears nightmares revealing past abuse while he's staying in the basement.  What was different about this one was the fact that it wasn't just Tony who had hurt  teenage Xander, but Jesse had as well.  In fact, Jesse got off on watching Tony take Xan.  Then did some 'taking' of his own.  It was a good fic about Xan learning to trust and Spike teaching him the difference between sex and making love.

2)  Okay all I remember about this one is Xander being drunk and talking to Spike's arse.