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Hard Times for Spike and Xan chapter 15

 Chapter 15
Title: Hard Times for Spike and Xan           
Author: WarpedMindedYaoi & NightmareAhead
Chapter: 15/18
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Summary: Xander and Spike's lives spin out of control. How do they fix it?
Warning: male/male sex
Disclaimer: I don’t own
Note: This is a role-play between WarpedMindedYaoi and NightmareAhead. In this one, Warped plays Spike and Nightmare plays Xander (its usually the opposite). This was also Nightmare’s first rp EVER.


Xander woke up about an hour or so later. The feeling of Spike's hands on his back made him moan. "A man can get used to waking up like this."

'How can he touch me after what I did to him?' he wondered.

Spike chuckled, "Yeah, I bet. Maybe I will do this to you every time you wake up," he then went quiet and just kept rubbing his back.

'Is... he gonna be nice?' He heard William whispered hesitantly. 

'I hope so..." He whispered back.

Noticing the quietness, Xander rolled over and took Spike's hands into his. "I'm so sorry. I don’t know what I was doing. Tell William I'm sorry too." 
He gave a kiss to each hand and let one of them go, that hand going to caress Spike's face. "I'm sorry, Baby. I love you so much. I'm sorry."

Spike smiled as he closed his eyes, leaning his head against Xander's hand. "I know, pet. You just... scared the shit out of me and him, but especially him. He... I think he is traumatized. He just wanted to see Alexander... and all that stuff happened," he sighed.

'I'm gonna fucking kill you!' Alex screamed at Xander.

'I know, I know.'

Xander sat up and backed up so he was leaning on the headboard. Spike was still in his lap and he ran his hands up and down his back. He felt so bad for what he did to them.

"What was he doing anyway? What happened to you?"

Spike was confused, "With William?" He tilted his head curiously. "If you’re talking about William... We were hoping that maybe William could bring Alexander out, but that didn't happen, and he was too terrified to bring me back. I was just in there... watching everything in shock."

"God I really fucked up." Xander leaned his head back and let his tears fall. The tears quickly turned into a flood and he was sobbing. "I'm sorry... Fuck, I'm so sorry."

Spike hushed Xander and held him tightly, "It's okay, pet, it's okay. We both forgive you. It’s alright," he soothed, kissing the top of Xander's head. "I love you so much. Just... I want to know why you acted that way."

Xander buried his face in Spike's chest and held him as tight as he could. "I don’t know. I just felt like I had to push you away. To show you what a monster I was." He pulled away from the vampire’s chest and looked up into his eyes. "I swear, it won’t happen again! I don’t want you to leave and I won’t be a monster in front of you. I promise!"

Spike gave a small smile and nodded, "I believe you, pet. I believe you," he sighed, pressing his lips against Xander's cheek tenderly. "Just... be safe. I don't want you hurt anymore. But I don't want you snapping at everyone for the reason, 'cause you are a monster' because I don't think you are."

Xander brought his lips to Spike's and kissed him deeply. "Love you,” he said before diving back into the kiss. His hands reaching under Spike's shirt and rubbing his hands up and down his back and pulling him closer. He couldn’t stop himself from thrusting up into his beloved.

Spike gasped into the kiss and pulled back. "Are you sure about this, pet?" He panted, staring at Xander lustfully, his cock hard and ready for anything. He licked his lips as he stared at his beloved.

"Need you," Xander gasped out as he thrust up once again He reached up and pulled Spike's shirt off before attaching himself to his nipples. Licking, sucking, and biting one, while pinching and twisting the other. After the one in his mouth was hard, he switched to the other.

Spike gasped and closed his eyes, moving so he was under Xander. He looked up at Xan and gave a small smile, "Make love to me." He whispered fondly as he reached up and caressed the brunette's chest, and tweaked one nipple.

Xander ripped both their pants off and grabbed the lube from the bedside table. After slicking up some fingers he looked down into his lover’s eyes and said, "I'm sorry, I really wanna do this nice and slow but I feel like I'm going to die any second."

He pushed one finger into Spike's opening and quickly worked to make it looser, then added a second and eventually a third. When he thought he was loose enough, he slicked up his cock and pushed in. "Guhhhhhh."

Spike whimpered and pushed down against Xander. "Yes!" he cried out, shoving down against him hard, "Fuck me," he panted. Spike reached down and started stroking his cock, "Harder! Please. God, make me cum!" he cried out, stripping his cock fast and hard.

Xander pounded into the man below him as hard as he could, panting and moaning at the feeling. He pulled Spike up to his chest and sat back on his legs, being able to go even deeper then ever in this position.

"Fuck! So tight. Gahhh!"

Spike choked on a breath as he bounced up and down on his lover's hard cock. "Take me. You’re... so big," he moaned. 

His body clenched around the cock that was pounding into him, his hole spasming around it, his back arched, his legs holding onto Xander's waist tightly, his arms around the brunette's shoulders, "Yes!"

Xander stood up on his knees, his hands on Spike's ass holding him up, and continued to thrust as hard as he was able. 

"Gonna cum! Fuck! Yes! Gonna cum, Baby! Cum so hard!" his thrusts getting erratic as he got closer and closer. Finally he felt his cock begin to twitch and shoot his seed into Spike. "SPIKE!"

Spike let out a yell as he came onto their stomachs and chests. He groaned out Xander's name as he rested his head on Xan's shoulder.

"Whoa... that... was wild," he purred, licking Xander's neck and gently biting, and took a couple mouthfuls before licking the wounds shut. 

"I love you so much, Xan-pet."

Xander fell to the side, Spike still in his arms and his cock still up his ass. He rolled so that he was on top and nuzzled his forehead against Spike's.

"Love you," he whispered. He rested his lips against his loves and enjoyed the after-glow.

Spike only purred louder as he nuzzled closer, his hands rubbing all over Xander's body. He let out a deep sigh as he opened his eyes and looked Xander in the eyes. "I love you so much," he gave a lazy grin.

"So I've heard," Xander laughed at how happy Spike seemed to be. It was cute. He leaned down and nuzzled Spike's neck, licking every now and then. "Now what?" he asked before he bit into the neck and took a few sips.

Spike let out a deep sigh, and turned his head to look at Xander. "I don't know. Maybe... I should let William out, and you should apologize to him." He narrowed his eyes, not angrily, but in a 'don't mess with me’ look. 

He shut his eyes and when he opened them, they looked shy and vulnerable, "Did I do something wrong?"

'Shit!' Xander panicked for a second, not having time to think of something to say to him. He also noticed he was still lying on him so Xander moved so that he was sitting next to William on the bed. He was afraid to touch him in case it might scare him.

"Hey, Wil. No you didn’t do anything wrong. I did. I'm sorry. I don’t know what came over me and what I did and said was so wrong and I'm so sorry."

'Damn. I feel so fucking bad. He's such a sweet, shy guy.'

William's brows furrowed as he gave a small nod, "Alright. Um, well... I forgive you." He gave a hesitant smile to Xander. 

He pointed to his cheek; "I deserve an apology kiss," he smiled sweetly as he moved closer to Xander. "You didn't hurt me physically, just... emotionally, and I forgive you." He still pointed to his cheek.

'Wasn't expecting this, that’s for sure.' Xander thought.

"Umm yeah, okay." Xander quickly leaned in, pecked William on the cheek, and quickly pulled back. He knew he was blushing but tried to ignore that.

William smiled, "You belong to Spike and I belong to Alexander. I know. I just... wanted to be apologized to." He looked down and fiddled with the bed covers.

"I'm sorry if I make you uncomfortable. Do you not like me? I mean... I am just like Spike, except... before the demon.," he pouted.

Xander had to hold back the laugh that wanted to escape at seeing that pout on Spike's face, even if it wasn’t Spike doing it. When he composed himself he removed William’s hands from the covers, gave them a squeeze, and let them go.

"I like you. What makes you think I don’t?"

William sighed sadly, "Because... you seem really uncomfortable. And, you got mad when Spike watched 'himself' get fucked by you," he pointed out. A grin appeared as he reached over and placed a hand on Xander's shoulder, "Wow... you and Alexander look exactly alike," he teased.
"Do you get where I am going now?"

'WHAT THE FUCK?!' Xander screamed in his head. 

He forced out a laugh, "That’s funny. Almost had me going there." He removed the hand on his shoulder. "I didn’t think someone as shy as you could be funny in a dirty way like that. Then again I'm starting to rethink the whole shy thing... Wait... Spike?"

He looked into the blue eyes to see if it was really Spike messing with him.

Wil couldn't help but giggle loudly as he fell back, 'Let's see if he can figure it out on his own.'

'It's your balls pet,' Spike warned.

Wil sighed, "Yeah. It's me pet." He purred, turning his head and grinning at Xander. He sat up and leaned close, "Are you okay? I mean. He did have a point."

Xander let out a sigh and fell back against the bed. "Jeeze, don’t do that! I thought I was going to have to let the poor guy down or something. Anyway, what point are you talking about? The one where I seem uncomfortable and didn’t like you watching them? Well I was uncomfortable because you informed me that I traumatized the poor kid. And I didn’t like you watching because it wasn’t us."

He sat back up and looked in to Spike's eyes to show he was still a little pissed about that, when he realized that it wasn’t Spike, it was still William.

'Time for some payback. This could be interesting.'

"But know that you’re back..." he leered and licked him lips.

William bit his bottom lip, worrying it nervously, "Yeah, well, pet. Not really in the mood right now." He turned over and stared at the wall in shock, "Maybe in a bit babe,” he tried to sound cocky, like Spike. 

Inside, Spike was laughing his ass off, 'This is priceless!'

Xander covered his mouth to hide his giant smile. He crawled over to William and pushed him onto his back. Sitting on his thighs he looked down into panicked eyes that were trying to hide the panic. 

"I bet I could get you in the mood." he smiled suggestively.

Wil swallowed nervously, 'Don't give up.' 

"Yeah... I bet you could, pet. But after our last coupling, I am left a little sore," he gave a sad smile to Xander, "Sorry Xan-pet." He blushed a little. 

Inside, Spike tried to help him, 'Hmm. You’re doing everything, but I am pretty sure he knows it’s you, not me... so... go farther and make him stop. He won't go too far, just go enough to make him uncomfortable. Prove to him that you 'are' me.'

William reached up and caressed Xander's cheek, "But... pet... if you *really* want to, I guess I can survive the pain for a bit," Wil purred.

‘Does he really think I wouldn't have noticed him saying 'coupling'?! Spike would never say that!' Xander leaned down so he was hovering over William, faces only inches apart.

"Never said I had to fuck you, Spike. Could do" he pointedly looked down at Wil's lips, "Other things."

Wil tilted his head in slight confusion, "What? Wait... what other things, pet?" 

He looked into Xander's eyes, "Luv, don't you want me?" He purred softly.

He had a feeling he was going to fail the lesson, but he wasn't going to give up, he wanted Xander to give up.

"Oh, Spike, you know what 'other things' I'm talking about," Xander purred.

'Like Wil has ever given a blowjob. Ha!'

He lifted one hand and caressed the chest below his. Slowly, his hand moved down to cup Wil's dick.

He gave a shocked look and said, "Baby, you’re not hard. Are you okay? Are you sick? Maybe I should look." He leaned back and started to unbutton Wil's pants.

Wil closed his eyes and mentally whimpered, 'Spike... I give up... oh! I got an idea, you go… and still pretend I am pretending to be you.'

'Bloody brilliant pet! haha!' 

Spike came back, but kept his eyes closed, still pretending to be Wil, he bit his lip shyly, "N-no, pet... it... it just needs a few gentle touches to get me started for the coupling, or... the other things," he whispered, getting Wil's words and accent down perfectly.

‘Damn, I thought that was gonna be it' Xander mentally cursed.

'Hey, I've got an idea, Xan. I'll pretend to be you. That way you wont have to do anything with Wil and they'll think you won.' Alex smirked at his brilliant plan.

'Good idea, Alex!'

Alex was given control of their body and started to stroke the cock in his hands.

"Well then we'll have to work on this, wont we."

Spike let out a gasp, "God, pet... yes." He groaned, arching his hips a little. His cock got hard easily in 'Xander's' hand. He spread his legs a little more. "A-are you sure we should do this right now Xan?" He whimpered. His stomach was in knots, this was kind of kinky, acting like someone else, and still feeling his lover's hands on him.

"Why shouldn’t we, Spike?" Alex smirked. He bent down and licked at Wil's member, tugging at his own. Wanting to see Wils eyes on him he stopped licking and looked up.

"Look at me suck you, Baby," he made sure to use Xander's pet name for Spike.

Spike reached down and carded his fingers through Xander's hair, "Bloody hell, pet... got me so hard," he purred, slowly opening his eyes. He tilted his head and looked at Xander, it was a little far from his eyes, so he couldn't really see that it wasn't Xander. Maybe his vamp senses were already failing. 'Yeah, right. No... it’s Xan... just... the bloody hot look on his face.'

Satisfied that Wil was watching him, he took him into his mouth. Moaning at the taste, he began to suck and bob his head.

'Yea I'm heading out' Xander said, then ran to his 'room.'

'You're loss.'

He was stroking his own cock in time with the bobs of his head and tried to take Wil in all the way, knowing that Xander could. Unfortunately, he was not Xander and his gag reflex took over. He pulled off and coughed.

Spike jerked his head up, 'Xan... never choked.' 

"Oh... god... please. Tell me you really 'are' Xander..." he begged as he covered up his cock and stared at 'Xan'.

He shook his head, 'I think... this is Alex...' he gasped to Wil. 


Spike moved close to look at Xander, "Bloody Fuck!" He screamed.

Alex looked up, confused at Wil's reaction. He looked into the blue eyes and felt his stomach drop.

"Spike...?" he squeaked out. "But... Wil... and..."

'Ohhhh fuck Xan is gonna be pissed.'

Spike felt tears rolling down his cheeks, "No..." he whimpered.

He grabbed Alex's arm, "I would never cheat on Xander! Please... please believe me!" he cried. 

'I am gonna take over for now.' William sighed sadly, sending Spike calming vibes. Spike sniffled sadly and he changed back to William. 

"Hey, hun," he whispered sadly. "It was a joke gone bad." He then explained what happened with him and Spike. He reached over and caressed the top of Alex's hand, "I don't blame you, you didn't know... Okay? Xander, might over react a little, but… we can convince him."

Alex was still shocked at what had just happened. Thanking every God there ever was that Xander wasn’t here right now. 

"Wil... He's gonna kill me..." his eyes were opened as wide as possible. "I don’t know if its even possible, but he will. He'll have to kill someone. Either me or Spike, even if it’s not our fault he’s gonna kill me."

Wil bit his lip; "Okay... but... you have to hide this from him. Just pretend it was me... Just… finish what you were doing, keep giving me the... blowjob, and finish. Then go brag to him about how it was me and... I told you, then we... did whatever. We can't let him find out. Alright?" He begged, he knew Spike was hurting enough already.

"You don’t get it! This is Xander’s body! He knows everything I know! I can’t hide anything! He's going to check the memories of this because he'll want to know when we found out we were... us. I'll... I'll talk to him. It might take a while."

He leaned forward and kissed Wil on the lips. "I love you," he said before he entered his own mind.

Wil scooted back and held his knees to his chest, "I love you too, Alex…" He whispered sadly. 

'I'm sorry Spike... it’s all my fault!' he cried. 

He felt Spike hug him, ’It’s all right pet. We are together in this. I won't let Xander hurt any of you. I am gonna tell him it is my fault, and it was all my idea.'

'No! I don't want you in trouble.'

'No worries, Wil. I will take care of everything.' 

Spike came out, and Wil sadly went to his room and shut the door, Spike knowing Wil was crying. 


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