I am a definite lurker but I really have been racking my brain for this story and I was wondering if someone could help me. I remember this scene where I believe that Xander thinks Spike has died and Xander runs into the sun because for a moment he believes it will kill him even though he hasn't actually been turned yet. Angel has to talk to him and realizes that Xander was trying to kill himself and has to claim him? If anyone has any clue I would be really grateful. Thank you very much. I am very appreciative that there is such a good community for this fandom. Have a good day.