I'm looking for a fic where Xander's father has abused him and Jesse knew about it. If I remember right the bits with Jesse were flashbacks of a sort. I remember one part with Xander's father abusing him and Jesse waiting in a tree outside watching the whole thing and erm... enjoying it? It's not a nice fic, but, from what I can remember, brilliantly written. It is Spander, I'm pretty sure all the flashbacks coming up because they're causing problems between Spike and Xander when they try to sleep together or something similar.
Any ideas, or even better, links?
Thanks in advance guys.