Pairings: S/X, A/W
Rating: NC17 (Mild description)
Disclaimer: I own none, all belong to Joss Whedon
Comments: Always welcomed!
Summary: Xander is date raped and Spike is there to help him
Warnings/Spoilers: Season 5 No Glory, No Dawn
Plot Bunny by: Lady Q: write a story where Xander is date raped
Beta’d by: Dragonfly_64
Spike sat at the bar drinking a beer, he ignored the waitress that was trying to pick him up. She was cute enough but right now all he could think about was Xander. He wanted to forget the stupid mistake he just about made with Xander. Xander needed his help not him trying to snog him. With a sigh he downed the rest of the beer and ordered another one.
He knew he needed to get back to Xander’s apartment; he didn’t want Xander to be alone for to long. Spike doubted that Brett would actually be stupid enough to go and see Xander but Xander didn’t need to be left alone he was still too fragile. After he finished his latest beer Spike stood up tossed a few bills on the bar before leaving.
When he returned to the apartment he found all the lights turned off and Xander’s door closed. Wanting to make sure he was alright Spike knocked on the door twice before walking in. He found Xander curled up in a ball on the bed holding a pillow tightly against his chest, “Xander?”
“What do you want Spike?” Xander asked not looking at him.
Spike could smell that Xander had recently gotten out of the shower, droplets hanging to the ends of his hair. “Are you alright?”
“Just leave me alone,” Xander said and turned over leaving his back to face Spike.
“Xander, I’m sorry about earlier,” Spike apologized. He smelt the tears before seeing Xander’s body rake with sobs. Without hesitation Spike climbed onto the bed and wrapped himself around Xander. “It’s alright pet.”
Xander buried his head into his pillow before speaking.
“I didn’t quite catch that Xan,” Spike spoke softly as he stroked Xander’s side.
“I’m disgusting,” Xander repeated loud enough this time for Spike to hear.
Spike pulled the pillow away and tossed it onto the floor so Xander wouldn’t hide behind it, “What the bloody hell are you talking about?”
“I’m dirty and I can’t get clean,” Xander sobbed. “I’m never going to be clean and it’s all your fault!” He screamed.
Spike growled, “My fault? And how do you figure this is my fault Whelp? I’m not the one that set you up with the bastard!”
“It’s not… I’m just tired.” Xander buried further under the covers. “I’m sorry Spike.”
Spike climbed off the bed, his anger deflated, Xander sounded so broken. “Can I do anything?”
“Could you stay? Just for a little while,” Xander asked his eyes red and puffy. “Keep the nightmares away?”
Spike pulled off his docs before climbing under the covers. Xander wiggled to get closer and grabbed a handful of the black t-shirt. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s alright luv,” Spike nuzzled his cheek against Xander’s head. “Willy’s looking into finding someone to get this chip out and than we’ll get your revenge.”
“Can I ask a favour?” Xander asked several minutes later.
“Anything,” Spike replied.
Xander turned his head his breath warm on Spike’s neck, “Just kill him, no torture. I just want him dead.”
Spike wanted to protest but in the end it was Xander’s decision, “Done.”
Buffy and Willow stopped by the construction site for lunch and to check up on Xander. Willow had phoned Buffy that morning telling her when Angel came home he was acting weird, broodier than she’d ever seen him. The girls decided that they would question Xander about the date, something was wrong and they were determined to find out what. Now they sat at on the grass under a tree across from the site.
Xander bit into his sandwich and looked up at his friends who were both staring at him. “What?” He asked wondering if he had mayo on his chin.
“We want to know what happened with Brett,” Buffy interrogated Xander before biting into her apple.
Xander’s breath hitched, he should have known they’d gang up on him. “H-he’s just not the kind of guy I’m interested in is all.” He set his sandwich down all of a sudden losing his appetite.
Willow looked sympathetic, “Still crushing on Spike?” She asked forgetting Buffy didn’t know.
“You’re crushing on Spike?” Buffy’s jaw dropped, “Since when?”
“Awhile now,” Xander and pulled the bread apart rolling it into small pieces.
“Does he know?” Buffy asked shocking both Xander and Willow when she didn’t freak out about the new discovery.
“No, and I’m pretty sure he isn’t interested,” Xander answered looking even more uncomfortable.
Willow squeezed his hand, “You’ll find the right guy.”
“How do you know he doesn’t like you?” Buffy questioned, she couldn’t believe anyone could not like Xander, he was just too loveable. “Did you ask him?”
“No, it’s complicated Buff,” Xander had to give a relieved smile though. He didn’t want on top of everything for Buffy to be mad or disgusted with him.
“Speaking of Spike, we stopped by his crypt last night to pay him for his help and he wasn’t there. It doesn’t look like he’s been there in a couple days.” Willow raised an eyebrow at her best friend. “You wouldn’t happen to know where he is, do you?”
Xander looked guilty, “He actually moved back in with me, demon problems.”
“Cheated at kitten poker again?” Buffy guessed.
“Got it on your first guess,” Xander answered with a laugh. He looked at his watch, “Well ladies I need to get back to work. I’ll see you guys later.” He stood and helped his friends up before jogging across the street.
“Wills, I’ll see you later I have a vamp to see,” Buffy dusted herself off.
Willow looked worried, “You’re not going to meddle are you?”
“Me meddle?” Buffy tried to sound shocked failing miserably. With a wave she was gone.
“Poor Spike,” Willow said to herself before heading the opposite way to the college.