groggyAuthor: forsaken2003
Pairings: S/X, A/W
Rating: NC17 (Mild description)
Disclaimer: I own none, all belong to Joss Whedon
Comments: Always welcomed!
Summary: Xander is date raped and Spike is there to help him
Warnings/Spoilers: Season 5 No Glory, No Dawn
Plot Bunny by: Lady Q: write a story where Xander is date raped
Beta’d by: Dragonfly_64
Part Eight
“Nepal?” Xander asked with disbelief.
“Yeah,” Spike answered.
“The one that’s in Asia?” Xander questioned hoping he was just confused.
Spike nodded, “It’s the first one that Willy found. I’ve got to go.”
“How long?” Xander slouched down. He had only been in the shower for maybe twenty minutes. How could things change that fast? Spike was leaving him.
“I don’t know pet,” Spike wrapped his hand around Xander’s neck trying to ease the tension. “Do you want me to stay? Wait until we find one that’s closer?
“Yes,” Xander replied. “But that could take months if not longer. You want the chip out and this might be your only chance. When will you leave?”
“Soon as possible I guess, tomorrow.” Spike suggested and placed a kiss on Xander’s temple. “Will you be alright?”
Xander shrugged, “I don’t know. You’ll come back though right?”
“Course I will,” Spike promised. “Have a job to do here don’t I? Besides I don’t plan on leaving you. Still waiting for my chance with you aren’t I?” He smiled at Xander.
Xander sighed, “It’s only be four days and I already trust you. Why is that?”
“I’m a trustworthy guy,” Spike retorted which earned him a snort. “You know I’ll protect you.”
“I do,” Xander established with a sigh. “Are you going to want to patrol?”
“Think the others can handle it without us for one night.” Spike said he had no idea how long he’d be gone so he wanted to spend his last night with his boy.
***
Giles looked over at Xander who had his head resting on his arms resembling a kicked puppy. He had been that way for the last two weeks. Afraid of the reason, which he already knew. Spike had disappeared, not that he was complaining any but it obviously seemed to be a distraction for the young man. Both Willow and Buffy also noticed it. Angel even seemed concerned and offered to stay since they seemed to be down two men for patrol.
Now for the most part Xander just hung around sulking. “Xander I know we’ve already asked but what’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” Xander buried his head into his arms. If he had known he’d be this affected by Spike leaving he would have told him to stay to find another way to get rid of the chip. He hadn’t heard from him and that worried him. What if he got the chip out and decided Xander wasn’t worth coming back for? What if something happened to him and he was now dust?
“If that undead ass comes back I’m so going to kick his ass.” Buffy said she hated seeing her friend like this. Obviously Spike took off as soon as he could after their talk.
Angel stood up, “Xander I think the wooden horse is a little shaky maybe you could take a look at it?”
Xander looked up and saw Angel’s nudging his head to the backroom. “Yeah sure,” He stood and followed Angel. Everyone’s eyes followed them.
Angel closed the door behind Xander, “He isn’t dead.”
“How do you know?” Xander asked sitting on the couch.
“I’d feel it,” Angel explained sitting beside Xander. “He’s going to be back.”
Xander looked at Angel; he had dark bags under his eyes. “What if he decided I’m not worth it?”
“Xander,” Angel sighed. “It’s been three years since I ‘offered’ you to him. Did it really seem like he lost interest in you? He’s kept your secret for you. If he wasn’t planning on coming back for you I have no doubt he would have gone to the others and told them before skipping out.”
“I want him to come back,” Xander said miserably.
“Do you love him?” Angel asked.
Xander bit his lip, “I don’t know. How can I love someone that’s tried to kill me? Besides that I don’t think I’m ready for anything more.”
“No one is telling you to,” Angel told him. “You can’t help who you fall in love with. He isn’t going to push you into anything.” He looked over at Xander debating on saying anything else. “Look Xander, I think you should tell them.”
“Are you kidding me?” Xander stood up and paced. “What the hell am I suppose to say. ‘Hey guys remember that date you set me up on? Well he kind of raped me. Sorry I didn’t tell you soon.’”
Both heads turned when Giles’s glasses hit the floor. Him, Willow and Buffy were all standing at the doorway.
“H-hey guys,” Xander said weakly.
“He what?” Willow asked hoping she heard wrong. She couldn’t have set up her best friend with a rapist.
Buffy’s hands became fists, she’d kill him. How dare that bastard hurt her friend, “I’ll kill him.”
“Buffy you can’t,” Giles placed a hand on both hers and Willow’s shoulders trying to calm both of them. “You’re a slayer, slayers don’t kill humans. I on the other hand can.”
“No!” Xander began panicking. They all knew, knew how disgusting he was, how weak. “None of you are going to do anything.”
Willow went over to Xander pulling him into a hug. “I’m so sorry Xan,” She sobbed into his neck. “We didn’t know.”
“Shh Wills,” Xander wrapped his arms around her. “I know it’s not your fault.”
“Xander let me get revenge for you,” Buffy begged. She needed to make things right.
Xander pulled her into the hug, “I don’t want you doing anything that you’ll regret in the future.”
“I’d never regret that,” She whispered.
“We should go to the police,” Giles spoke up. If Xander wouldn’t let him take care of it than the man should be punished in another manor.
Xander shook his head, “I didn’t want anyone to know. Besides Spike’s going to take care of it.”
“Spike?” Willow pulled away. “But he has the chip.”
“He’s gone to Nepal to get it removed,” Xander told them waiting for the shit to hit the fan.
“How does Spike know?” Buffy asked. Why would Xander tell Spike and not them?
Xander wrapped his arms around himself feeling exposed. “He was at my apartment that night. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you but I didn’t want to make you feel like it was your fault. You had no idea what kind of guy he really was.”
“When is Spike going to return?” Giles asked he may not like the vampire but he was protecting Xander he had to have some respect for that.
“I don’t know,” Xander replied. “I’m hoping soon though.”
“You’re going to stay with me and Angel,” Willow told him. “I don’t want you staying alone, not until Spike comes back.”
Xander looked between Angel and Willow both seemed to genuinely want him there, “Just until Spike gets back.”
Angel smiled; for once Xander listened to him. Spike would be back.