Warnings: Big time angst. This is difficult without giving the plot away, suffice to say the entire story is two chapters BUT Chapter One is also a shorter stand alone. Chapter Two contains severe Angel(us) bashing and if you are a fan my advice is to give it a miss. If you decide to ONLY read CHAPTER ONE this warning applies:Major Permanent Character Death If you are reading CHAPTER TWO as well, the warning does NOT apply.
Timeline: This is Buffy AU. The First happened, Xander didn't lose an eye, Spike wore the amulet but didn't fry, Sunndydale still exists and Spike never went to LA. NFAW is yet to happen, Spike won't be part of it. Spike has his soul, no chip. Spike occasionally helps out in LA and has a tentative truce with Angel. Xander and Spike have been a couple for about three years.
Rating: R for language and adult/sexual themes.
Pairing: S/X in an established relationship also X/Angel(us) ?!
Status: COMPLETE 2 Chapters Approx 5000 words. Posted over 2 days.
Comments: Comment if you want to, though it would be nice to know someone is reading it.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, everything else belongs to someone who is not me. I write for fun not profit.
My thanks to my dear friend Bumblbee for her pre-reading and encouragement.
A/N : It is FICTION, the characters are FICTIONAL and as such incapable of being offended. The views, opinions, thoughts, of Spike and especially Xander may not coincide with your own or those expressed in many other stories, they are presented here only as an alternative point of view.
Distribution: My LJ, Bloodclaim & archived at captainperoxideandthewhelp
Summary: Everything we do or say in life and unlife has consequences. Sometimes so small as to be insignificant, others so huge as to alter the course of your existence. Has Spike's worse nightmare been realized?