Author: heavenlyxbodies formerly cobalt_mystic
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: R
Feedback: Yes, please, just no permanent damage, k.
Disclaimer(s) can be found here
Beta: phnx_reader anything remaining is probably me ignoring her advice
Warnings/Squicks: a lot of implied abuse (this is Angelus ppl), some graphic deaths, major and minor character deaths- neither of the boys, nor any of the Scoobies, a goodly amount of angst
Summary: Xander thinks his losing his mind, or perhaps gaining someone else’s, either way, he wants help and it comes from the most unexpected of sources.
Written for fall_for_sx 2010
AN1: My gods this thing has been a long time in coming! And I’m deeply sorry to geek_girl33 for that.
Anyway, this was based on this prompt from geek_girl33, and I just want to thank her for letting me claim it some two years ago and putting up with my fandom angst and my getting lost in a new fandom and the muses just generally drying up like the bloody Sahara, thank you for not losing faith that I’d actually get this done.