Author: baudown
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Don't own them. I would like to.
Summary: Xander's got a little something on the side. Alternate season 5ish where nothing whatsoever is happening to any other characters.
Feedback: YES, especially for this (see note)
Warnings: I don't think so, except as to long note to follow.
Note: So. When I started to write S/X last year, I assumed I'd be writing them some sex. At the time, I would hardly look at any S/X without at least an R rating (now, of course, I'll read about them shopping for a bathroom tiles if it's well-written). But somehow, I found it very difficult. Either it didn't seem to fit organically in the story, or if it did, I just didn't know how to do it. When I read sex scenes, I know what I don't like (the kind of laundry list of "He touched that, and it made him shiver. Then he touched that and it made him shudder) but it's harder to get a handle on why I like what I do. That is, what makes the sex scene good, hot, emotional, etc. And I've really struggled with this. I've tried to read as much as I can about sex-scene writing by authors I like and that sort of thing. So months ago, I sat down and just started writing something sex-centric as an exercise, but I kept abandoning it, and taking it out again, and abandoning it, ad nauseum. And it turned into this very, very long thing, which is pretty much all sex scenes held together by a thin membrane of something I wouldn't presume to call plot. I don't have a beta, and no one's read it, and I've been looking at it for so long that I have no perspective at all. I'm basically terrified to post it. So I decided to post the first part, before the sex gets heavy, hoping I'd get some feedback to see if I'm on the right track. And maybe someone would be willing to take a look at the rest? Anyway, if this note hasn't sent you running for the hills, here it is.
http://baudown.livejournal.com/7497.html#cutid1