God damnit I'm Zeek (new_unchanged) wrote in bloodclaim,
God damnit I'm Zeek


Author: New_Unchanged
Title: Skin Show
Chapter: Day 2 of 28, but not necessarily the same story.
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Rating: PG 13, Nothing Exciting, but I use harsh language
Concrit: Comments only
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters, the lyrics to the songs, or anything else.
arnings/Squicks: Maybe preSpander, but nothing yet. PG for alcohol
Summary: Based on the Following prompt from Lady Q: There is a picture of Xander showing off his tattoo's so I would like to read a story about either how he got his tattoo's or what Spike thinks of them.
Previous chapters: None.\
nbsp;Notes: The Song used for this day  is Tattoo by Jordin Sparks
eta(s): Spike_1790
Challenge: Write a Songfic a day for the entire month of February. Based on a prompt from Lady Q: Write a story or a series of stories based on the 25 most played songs on your ipod. Songs can be shuffled or in order up to the writer.

Spike was living with Xander again. This time the blonde menace had taken over his closet. It didn’t mean Xander could keep him in there. Xander was in the kitchen after coming out of a shower with a towel slung low around his waist. Spike was at the counter drinking his morning mug of blood. Xander looked up from making coffee to see SPike staring at him intently.

“What are you looking at?” Xander asked in a tense tone.

“Wot? I was looking at your tattoo, What’s that all about?”

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

That truth is a stranger

Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on

And leave you behind

“It’s none of your business.” Xander sneered.

“I didn’t mean to pry, but it just seems out of sorts the slayer’s white knight has a tatty” Spike replied. “You do know that a tattooed cross won’t prevent a Vampire from biting you”.

“That’s not why I got it”  Spike looked expectantly at him. “It’s for my friend Jesse”.

Spike could tell from Xander’s tone that there was something significant about that name. ”Who was she, Mate?”

“He, Jesse was a he”, Xander paused for a moment deciding if he was going to continue. “"He fell victim to Sunnydale, just after Buffy came. Darla turned him to lure us all as bait for the harvest. There was a showdown in the Bronze and he got staked.” Xander went to the fridge and popped a beer. Coffee wasn’t going to help him handle this conversation.

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back at a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could

Spike looked Xander in the eyes and said, “Something tells me that’s not all that happened. Get it all off your chest”.

“I staked him, well sort of. I was holding a stake and some girl pushed him into it while she was running away. It’s crazy because I know I could never do it. I was so scared and he was my best friend and now he’s gone.” Xander let out a sob. “He was describing what it was like to be a vampire, how powerful he felt, how alive. I almost believed him. Then poof he was gone. Jesse knew me better than anyone else. I would have let him turn me.”

"Now pet, you would have done it on your own. You are a white hat through and through. You would have saved one of the girls from him, or saved him from his soulless existence”

Stop, admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I gotta be strong

And leave you behind

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you

Xander looked up at him through wet lashes, “The problem is not all vampires are soulless. I think that’s why I hated you and Angel so much. You are walking proof that not all Vampires are innately bad.”
Spike thought about that for a moment. “You realize you picked to rare cases. Angel was cursed to have his soul, and I am one of the only demons to ever survive the trials to earn mine”.
“Spike, even without your soul you were never really like other vampires.”
“It’s an Aurelius trait. Our line started from the Master, we have a bit more going on than other Vampires”.
“Still Jesse could have gotten a soul. He’s gone and I killed him. The only thing left of him is my tattoo. No one else even remembers him or cares”
“What’s done is done. You stopped him before the only memory of him would have been that of  monster. Xan, not many Vampires would choose to get a soul.”
“Jesse would have for me, I would have made him!” The tears were burning Xander’s eyes. “you don’t understand. He was more than my best friend he was the only person who ever loved me as I was and didn’t try to change me.”.
“No it wasn’t like that. I mean I loved him like brother.”
“Xander, you can have a tattoo, you can carry this around like a weight on your heart but Jesse was gone the moment Darla bit him, and he would thank you for what you did. He wouldn’t want to be the cross you bear.” Spike didn’t really know what to do so he handed him another beer and a paper towel. They sat in companionable silence. Spike knew he shared something with Xander, but there was still ground to cover.


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